Things Change...So Do Cities...

"Maybe mistakes are what make our fate...without them what would shape our lives?

Maybe if we had never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, have babies,

or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities. People come into your life and they go.

But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart...

and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away."

-Sex and the City

I've veered off course. And I'm about to take another turn off the beaten path.

I'm leaving.

Texas is my home. It always will be. It's my refuge when times are tough. It holds those nearest and dearest to me and I honestly don't know what I would have done without them the past 9 months. When my marriage fell apart, there was no question in my mind as to where I'd go. I know it's cliche, but home really is where your heart is...and Texas will always hold my heart.

But, it's time to move on. I can't live under these wings forever. I've always been a dreamer but I've never been a person who takes chances. That's all about to change. I'm about to pack up my things and take the biggest leap of faith ever. There are times that I wake up in the middle of the night questioning why I'm leaving. Am I running away from something? Have I completely lost my mind?! But, I've come to the realization that I'm not running away from anything. I'm running toward something. Amazing opportunities are out there...you just have to chase them down. Don't wait for those opportunities to come knocking at your door; knock on their's first. Beat the door down if you have to. That's what I'm doing. And trust me when I say...it's absolutely terrifying and exciting all at the same time.

After months of wrestling with ideas of where to go, I've finally narrowed it down to two places. Two amazing places. Two places I love and adore.

...Los Angeles being number one. This one kind of fell into my lap. I've always dreamed of living there but never considered it to be a realistic option. I mean, c'mon...Tinseltown?! Really?!

Yes, really. There's a possibility of an amazing job...a DREAM job. I don't really want to go into detail because it hasn't officially been offered yet, but if you're the praying kind, please please please...send one up for this one! I should hopefully be hearing something about it in the next few weeks and I'm crossing my fingers that it's the option that God has in His plan for me.

Okay, onto option number two. If LA isn't in the cards, I'll be shipping my car and taking as little clothing as possible to Honolulu. Hello, Waikiki! When I say I love Hawaii, I mean I really looooooove it. It's probably my favorite place I've ever been. Can you say PARADISE? That's exactly what it is. Sand, sun, water, fresh fruit, beautiful flowers, surfing, tanning, pina coladas, grass skirts, luaus, perfect weather, aaahhh! I could go on and on. I have family that lives in Honolulu and they have so graciously opened up their home to me as a stepping stone. I've slowly been looking at jobs and applying for a few in preparation if LA doesn't work out. I'm not gonna lie, yall...Hawaii would be pure fun. Yes, I'd work. Yes, I'd pay bills. But, it would be a dream come true. How many people can actually say they've lived in Hawaii?!

So, there you have it. It's one or the other. Only time will tell. Honestly I don't know where I'll end up. July seems like a lifetime away to find out but I'm making a solid attempt at being patient...something I'm not very good at. What I do know is this: either place is a decision based solely on me. It's been a long time since I've been selfish and done something to make myself happy. I'm finally at a point in my life where I'm able to do that. Some of you may disagree or might think I'm crazy. I don't care. I'll just think of you when I'm laying on the beach in Malibu or in tropical paradise.

My closing thought goes back to the quote at the beginning of this post. Of course I'm going to be heartbroken to leave my family and friends here. Each of you have been my rock at some point over the course of the last several months. Whether it be a listening ear or someone to lay around the pool with...you've all been there in one way or another and I will forever love and appreciate you for it. Sadly, I know I'll lose some friends over this move. People lose touch...it's the nature of the beast. But, what comforts me the most is knowing that the ones I truly love will always be a part of my life...and if I'm lucky, just a plane ride away...